The Longest Week

Shohei Ohtani, 31, the highest paid player in Major League Baseball, helped the Los Angeles Dodgers win the 2025 World Series over the plucky Toronto Blue Jays in seven games and 146 innings.

It started with the second longest World Series game in baseball history. Which was the third game of this year's World Series. 

What was I doing sitting in front of a TV screen in a dark house shortly before midnight rooting for a team from Canada to score a run and end a game that had lingered nervously into the 17th inning?

The standard baseball game goes nine innings. The game was about to run 18. That’s two games worth of baseball and neither team had scored a run over the last 10 innings.

Like tennis, there is no clock in baseball. It can go on forever.

You must love the game to stay tuned. I was enjoying every nuanced second from the expression on the pitchers' faces as they prepared to throw curves, sliders and 100-mile fastballs at batters with wooden sticks, to base runners calculating when to go, fielders anticipating a hardball smacked at them and what to do if they caught it. 

Baseball at its highest level with everything on the line is a pleasure to watch.

Once revered as the nation's pastime, baseball has been called out, lost its place to the faster, continuous action games of football and basketball that keep fans in front of a TV screen. Baseball is the opposite: slow, fit for a languid summer day or evening, a bunch of guys spitting and farting, grabbing their crotches waiting for something to happen. Or so the stereotype would have it, with all due respect to women's fast-pitch softball, a different game.

Going18 innings against the current champions, the underdog Toronto Blue Jays had already issued a warning to one of the wealthiest teams in baseball, the Los Angeles Dodgers: You've got competition from a scrappy club from north of the border. Trump's tariffs on Canada served as a backdrop, as former Jays superstar Joe Carter said: All of Canada was rooting for Toronto. Los Angeles was rooting for the Dodgers.

We had business in La-La Land the next day, would be driving 380-miles from Santa Cruz to Dodger Town. I couldn't stay up all night.

Recent reports show that Hispanics make up 40-percent of Dodger fans. Since 1980 when a 19-year-old left-handed wunderkind from Mexico named Fernando Valenzuela stepped on the pitcher's mound for the Dodgers, Angelenos of Mexican heritage have been in love with the team. They wear the blue caps with mucho pride.

LA, with all of its diversity and derision, deserves a rally factor. Let it be the team that was first to accept a Black player, Jackie Robinson, whose number 47 is sacrosanct as the only 47 in Major League Baseball. 

ICE (Immigration Customs Enforcement) has been extremely active in LA, rounding up folks from south of the border like cattle. Easy pickins, I thought, at Dodger Stadium located in Chavez Ravine which has only one road in and out. Would ICE be hiding in the bushes?

This added a new statistical element to a game built around numbers and averages. How many immigrants can you lock up versus how many paying fans and/or votes you lose. Factor in three Japanese nationals playing for the Dodgers, including Shohei Ohtani who, incredibly, excels at pitching and hitting. He walloped two home runs and two doubles in the marathon third game that the Dodgers eventually won after 6 hours and 39 minutes and 18 innings. Ohtani reached base in the game a record 9 times.

Baseball records were falling like bowling pins in this Series. 

Dodger star Freddy Freeman finally broke the stalemate I’ll, smashing a walk-off home run to end the the marathon 3rd game giving the LA team a 2-1 lead in the Series. 

The 6-foot, 4-inch Ohtani has a contract with the LA franchise for $700-million. Once known as the Bums from Brooklyn, today the LA franchise is valued at $7.73 billion. Many fans wear newly-minted Brooklyn Bums T-shirts. The team moved to California in 1958. Go figure. Forget it, Jake. It's Dodger Town.

Heat Wave

California was suffering a heat wave the Tuesday we drove to LA where Game 4 would be held. We always take Hwy 101 for the scenery that in recent years has been blanketed in grape vines, the rolling hills of California vineyards.

We got an early start. Barb and I take turns at the wheel. Traffic was light. I looked forward the game that evening. Paso Robles, San Luis Obispo, Pismo Beach, Santa Maria, Los Alamos... we flew by without our usual stops. 

"Let's check Super Ricos for lunch," she said.

I could almost taste the fresh poblano peppers and homemade tortillas that attract long lines at this nondescript taqueria in south Santa Barbara. No line today. The place was closed -- Tuesday and Wednesday, according to the handwritten sign on the front door.

Adding to our hunger, the dull smell of oil began to penetrate the far reaches of my olfactory passages. I spotted the familiar six oil drilling platforms off the coast. Drill baby. The sensation worsened when we passed through Malibu on the PCH noting the remains of the Palisades fire in January. 

The ruins, even on the coast side, included partial foundations, broken brick walls, a decorous concrete birdbath stood alone, a symbol of elegance amidst ruin. The fires had blown down the canyons leading to the coast with indiscriminate results. We saw dwellings standing erect like sentries next to empty lots and scorched black palms.

We reached our destination of Manhattan Beach in time to see the sun set. My throat had begun to burn. The Jays evened the Series that night in LA at 2 games a piece. Angelenos were becoming notably nervous.

"People around here have been taking Toronto too lightly," said one resident from his balcony apartment.

The next morning I jumped into the ocean to cool off, hoping to cleanse my nasal passage with salt water. Barb had a family meeting. I walked to the North End Cafe in Manhattan Beach for delicious chilaquiles. The chef was a portly Latino wearing a Dodger cap who seemed at home and a fan of his own cooking. I don't want to make a big deal out of it, but under the circumstances you start to notice who's doing the work.

Mission Impossible

Our ultimate mission was to provide support to our friend Stephanie who had undergone knee replacement on Tuesday. She lives alone caring for her lovable pit bull Freya in a residence crawling with plants and wild visitors from the local environs.

"Welcome to my Jurassic Park," she greeted us. Her post surgery mood, doubtless drug-supported, was upbeat. "A hawk landed over there recently," she pointed to the jungle just outside of her room-sized terrarium connected to her main living space. She had a photo of the predator. "I have raccoons and opossums, too."

Another of the many sides of Los Angeles.

Stephanie's hawk

Stephanie and I shared at least two major concerns: Deep disgust for our the current administration in DC, and a desire to watch what was turning into a historic World Series, being held in her greater backyard (aka Chavez Ravine) near downtown. The same Chavez Ravine where a Hispanic community was removed in order to build Dodger Stadium. Irony upon irony. 

The Series served as a distraction (a baseball frequency) for both of us. That evening my nose ran like a faucet. I did everything possible to cover up what I was sure was an allergic reaction to air-borne particles in Los Angeles. Stephanie's myriad fertile, tangling greenery surely did not help my condition.

The evening following Steph's surgery, we all watched the Jays go ahead in the Series 3-games to 2, as 22-year-old pitcher Trey Yesavage struck out a record-sertting 12 Dodgers, to become an instant Canadian hero. Things were suddenly looking dubious for the modern-day Bums but divine for the Canadian Birds. Although kwe never saw Steph's hawk.

Barb and I like our coffee hot in the morning while Steph drinks a cold brew from the refrigerator. I volunteered to pick up two cups at a nearby Starbucks.

I rarely do Starbucks and I'm not familiar with protocols like names of coffee drinks. It was a day off for the Series and the day before Halloween. Appropriately spooky black and orange decorations were abundantly on display on local lawns. I had to pull over and figure how to defog the windshield. I needed my caffeine fix. Discomfort in my throat had subsided but my nose continued to drip.

Starbucks was empty, save for three employees. Funny for a Thursday morning. What was I missing? I walked from one end of the counter to the other hoping to be recognized with no response. I did note a row of cups filled and ready to go arranged in some kind of alphabetical order. I'm from Santa Cruz where Starbucks is not recognized. We have Verve, The 11th Hour, Cat and Cloud, Firefly, Santa Cruz Roasting Company and a few other local roaster/purveyors.

I finally drew attention from a barista. Noting the size of cups, I said. "Two tall cups of drip coffee, please." She performed the electronic payment routine and went about her business. I wondered what she was up to, since it didn't seem to be pouring two cups of coffee. Anticipating where the cups would be delivered, I went to the counter where the aforementioned cups were full and waiting.

People began to show up for those ready-made specialty coffee drinks. They had obviously ordered online, were probably on their way to work. I got it! Service was designed around car culture; you pick up your brew on your way to work or wherever you're going. No one was wearing Dodger merch. Did they know about the Series? Another side of the beast: blase'.

My name was called, I picked up my two tall cups, already fitted with lids and proceeded to the counter where I spotted two canisters of cream, one on the right side with half-and-half the other on the left side of the counter with oat milk. I couldn't imagine adding oat milk to coffee. Or was it goat milk? I wasn't wearing my readers so I couldn't tell. Neither appealed to me.

I bumbled around with the lids and discovered coffee filled to the brim. I would need to pour out coffee before I could add cream. With a tall cup in each hand, I searched for a place to pour out coffee, feeling very conspicuous, knowing I was doing it all wrong. 

I discreetly, finally, poured the excess coffee into the trash, added cream, replaced the lids and with both hands full with top-heavy cups, I backed out the door.

Halloween fever on The Strand in Manhattan Beach

Trick or Treat

Steph seemed to be healing rapidly. Freya the contented pit bull roamed around the house, stopping occasionally to cough deeply. She continued to show signs of a recent bout with pneumonia. We walked her one afternoon and Barb took her out one morning. Not much of a walker, Freya preferred lying on the neighbors' grass on her back and stomach, emulating the decadence of the famed Cleopatra. Watching her made my throat itch.

Barb and I went out to purchase Halloween candy for trick-or-treaters, which would be the same day as the 6th game of the Series If the Jays win tonight, Toronto wins the Series. The Dodgers had to win both Friday and Saturday's games to claim the trophy. Both games would be played in Toronto in front of thousands of screaming Cannucks.. A tension verging on surrender settled over the basin.

The kids came in their costumes as predicted. One little couple were dressed in homemade police uniforms. Interesting, given the smattering of American flags in the neighborhood. "Cute costumes," I said. I struggled to keep my mind on the game, which the Dodgers ended up winning, which meant the 7th game on Saturday night would be a barn-burner, pull out all stops, anything goes. It had been six years since the World Series had gone to seven games!

Pressure was on. The final game played in Canada. Winner take all. Could the Dodgers take the trophy back to LA? Did the upstart Blue Jays have enough in them to beat the star-clad team from LA? 

Stephanie appeared to be managing well, with support friends in the area. We made plans to drive home on Saturday. I hoped to arrive in time to watch the critical 7th game of the Series. 

Wrap Up

I drove back to Santa Cruz in a fury. "You rest, Honey." My nose and throat felt better. But I still had baseball fever.

Canadian Karla Courtney shows off sweater she knitted for good luck during Toronto Blue Jays playoff games and World Series, timed with finish of 7th Game. That's real fandom.

You've probably heard by now that the Dodgers won the 2025 World Series. But it required 11 innings in Game 7 to do it, before catcher Will Smith cracked a home run in the top of the inning and his teammates turned a crucial broken-bat double play in the bottom of the 11th that kept the hometown Jays from scoring. The 6th and 7th Games in Toronto were as close as baseball can be, all told, 146 nail-biting innings . I believe the baseball gods favored the Dodgers for a reason. Maybe due to the many immigrants under duress in LA. I just wonder how many Angelenos stayed tuned when it appeared to be over for the Bums. All in all, the Series was a winner for baseball. It seemed fitting that a Japanese National, Dodger pitcher Yoshinobu Yamamoto, was named Most Valuable Player. He won three of the four games, plus relief in the final game, with an overall earned run average (ERA) of 1.03 (which is excellent).

After a long week of touching bases in California, we were safe at home.

Too Much Fun!

Art by Isabel Bryna

My daughter tells me that I need to change my frequency.

She blithely dances around her house singing amid bright colors and art, as if she were the star in a fantastical musical. She talks about moon phases and draws cosmic connections and spiritual symbols on canvas. 

I, on the other hand, issue warnings of doom and gloom due to our dictator president. 

She's tuned into the universe.

I'm tuned in to the next election.

I want to tell her that under a fascist government her art could be censored. It's a possibility, I want to say.

I realize she doesn't need to hear this, coming from an elder member of the old establishment. I think about how I tuned in, turned on and dropped out as a young man. That's how I arrived in Santa Cruz, at that time an enclave of post-Sixties hippies and progressive idealists. I lived on the fringe in a time warp.

Today I'm a doomsayer. I don't want to bum her trip. But...

What about AI? I ask.

She says it will never match the inner human spirit that is counterpoint and the essence of our spiritual being. Or something like that. She actually writes and publishes oracles. Her expressions exceed my simple understanding.

Each morning I bombard myself with negative energy of how the dictator has flaunted the law, extorted dollars, made himself richer while stealing medical care from ordinary folks. And so on and so forth. That's the job of a free press, to hold the government accountable.

But I believe my daughter is right. I need a new frequency in the greater cosmic universe. Regardless of who or where we are, the only thing we really have is time. This has become more obvious as I've watched friends pass into the next realm, whatever that is. 

With these meanderings in mind, following a day-long travel episode from the Hawaiian islands to the mainland, I had a dream unlike any other. I can best describe it as a psychedelic trip, with bending imagery and incredible audio depth. It was exhilarating.

I was throwing a party and many of my friends who have passed were in attendance. I wore a feather on my head and rode a galloping horse bareback over grassy, sloping grounds. I hugged the horse's neck whose head turned out to be Frida, my late, beloved German Shepherd. 

I greeted each of my guests with the two-finger peace sign and called: "Too Much Fun!" Which boomed out as if broadcast by loudspeaker. From their faces, surrounded by halos. I was feeling a new frequency.

Trail of Broken Glasses

I can’t see. That is, I cannot read normal sized typeface without reading glasses. You know, those “readers” you can buy at your favorite variety store.

This all started at about age 47, which just happens to be the year I was born, 1947. I know: weird. The same year I noticed the hair on top of my head was, shall we say, thinning.

That was about the time I decided to drink a gin martini every Friday night. To deal with loss. 

I knew it was a crutch. But after a couple of tini’s I had no interest in reading or thoughts about the top of my head. 

I realized I was experiencing a midlife crisis.

I went to my doctor who was a bald man with a beard whose eyes twinkled like starbursts. His high-resonance voice made the hair on the back of my neck stand erect. I guessed he was about my age and probably Jewish, but that had no bearing on my opinion of him. 

He had a jolly personality and a dog named Betsy who sat on the floor while the doc listened to my inner body with a stethoscope and said I had a "conduction variance" but not to worry. He said if anyone asks me about my heart just tell them about the variance. 

Betsy, a mixed husky breed, sat quietly still. The proverbial fly on the wall.

Hearing about the variance made me nervous. Was that the reason I spaced out so often? 

"What about my eyes?" I said.

"Follow my finger," he said. He proceeded to move his index finger in front of me from the left to right. "Your eyes look fine," he said. "Just pick up some reading glasses and you might consider smoking a little weed. It will relax you and help you to focus."

"Are you serious?" I said.

"Of course I’m serious. Marijuana has proven to be a relaxant for cancer patients."

The sound of the C-word scared the hell out of me. First the variance and now this. I could feel my weakening eyes bugging as if I had seen a ghost. My own.

"You’re jumping to conclusions," he said. 

"Jumping to conclusions!" I said, squinting at him to get a better look. I noticed a bulge in the pocket of his white coat and surmised by its shape that it was a small smoking pipe. "Are you stoned? What’s that pipe doing in your pocket?" I said.

"It’s not a pipe," he said insistently. "It’s a whistle for Betsy. I think you need to take a deep breath and open your heart and mind." 

He never showed me the whistle.

I left the doctor's office and went directly to a local pharmacy where I purchased a pair of 150-strength reading glasses, put them in my shirt pocket and drove home where I opened the local weekly newspaper to read the astrology column. I am partially superstitious, a trait I inherited from my mother who was 100-percent Irish. 

My readers resting on the bridge of my nose, the words on the page popped out as clear as a clean shot of gin: "You have reached a critical point where the stars are aligning for your benefit. Follow your instincts and you will optimize this convergence of heavenly insight."

My instincts told me to load up on readers, which I have done ever since, reeling through the years, from 150-strength to 250. The resulting problem, however,  has been a trail of broken glasses. Either I sit on them,  squash them in my pocket, inadvertently stretch the arms till they break. Or simply can't find them.  Readers are typically made of cheap, brittle plastic. I keep a roll of Scotch Tape handy.

I have a magnifying glass in my desk drawer at home, but that doesn't help when I'm not there.

Lucky for me there always seems to be a broken pair of readers nearby. I'm adaptable. I don't smoke anymore. I'm on to the bigger stuff. Midlife crisis is so passe'.

 

 

House of Cards & the Playboy Girls

It's been about 10 years since we watched Frank Underwood (Kevin Spacey) weasel his way to President of the United States in the ground-breaking Netflix series, House of Cards. We know how that turned out. Not good for Frank and his cohorts.

If you did not watch the series, let's just say Frank got his just due, following six seasons of nefarious skullduggery that included a couple of murders performed by Frank himself. Then, of course, the man who played Frank, Kevin Spacey, was convicted as a sexual predator. Goodbye Frank. So long Kevin.

Critics for the most part gave high marks to the show, especially the acting, which included Robin Wright as Frank's likewise super-ambitious spouse, Claire Underwood. Many critics found the acting superior to the screenwriting. I could hardly wait for the next episode.

Fast forward to 2025. We find ourselves in our second iteration of the Donald Trump Shit Show, with current episodes high-lighting the comely, glamorous girls who prattle obsequiously around the fat-slob host. A couple of my friends call them, "The playboy girls." Making America great again. Tune in and turn on.

As this season rolls by, the host is losing his bearings caught up in rambling word-salad rally-talk that can go on for hours. He slings vile shots at former President Joe Biden and his administrators, as well as his opponent political party, the Democrats, whom he refers to as far-left radical lunatics. He's attempting to prosecute his former Director of the FBI.

He has fully weaponized his government actors in every department. A tactic that brings to mind the frenetic, machine-gun mouth Republican Jim Jordan who redundantly accused the Biden Administration of "weaponizing government." Hello!? Obviously, the primary goal of the DTSS is to obliterate anyone who called him out for his unlawful misdeeds. It's not weaponizing the U.S. government, it's mob-execution-style payback. Blackmail. Extortion. Corruption. Run amuck.

Like Frank Underwood, whom some critics compared to Shakespeare's MacBeth, The Donald is faltering and in trouble. His government is currently shutdown. Actors from his own legion are upset, including MAGA queen Marjorie Taylor Greene. She understands that her constituents do not want to lose their health care, which has been taken from them by the boss’s Big Beautiful Bill. Those folks will not be able to afford health insurance without government premiums that DT has ordered slashed. Alas. Same is true in most red states where DT was voted back into office. 

His supporters who so hopefully voted him in to bring prices down are the victims. His wealthy donors who make millions every day on mergers and takeovers are the winners. One thing he has never done, is put together a policy for health insurance for "his people." 

As a quasi political junkie whose been around the block a few times since President Nixon, I have watched the neoliberal fleecing of America's working and middle class. We've been given the shaft. We pay the tax bills while the wealthiest, increasingly, receive the predominant spoils. The disparity between the rich and the fast-increasing poor is enormously unfair. It's only gotten worse.

The DTSS is sponsored by the wealthiest people in the world, starting with Elon Musk. Our only chance at a fair shake, is our numbers. We can achieve critical mass. In a democratic republic we have the advantage. It's just navigating the lies and the gerrymandering of legislative districts like they're doing in Texas. California has a proposition on the ballot to allow the state to fight fire with fire, a chance at honest representation in Congress. Yes on 50.

Politics are painful and there will never be a perfect government. We're not a perfect species. But we can attempt to be fair and just as our fore fathers dreamed.

House of Cards came along at the perfect time, shortly before Trump's first term. Frank Underwood showed us a familiar story of how a greedy, unethical ruler ultimately fails and falls. Let it be a lesson learned.

 

Big Beautiful Day PS

 I love the smell of deportations in the morning. — Kindly, Your President

Art by KCS

I've come a long way since those youthful days in Queens. Who would have known that I would become the most famous, greatest man not only in the world, but in the history of the world. Beautiful. If you think about it. Which I like to do. Some say I'm the "most beautiful" ever. Maybe that's the same thing but it's worth saying again. I like to stare at the ceiling in the middle of the night and pretend that I own everything, which is really not that unrealistic if you think about it realistically. 

But I can only stare at something for about a second before I grab my laptop and post something on my own social network called Truth Social. Don't you think that's a beautiful name for a social network, putting the word "truth" in front, which, by the way, begins with the same letters as my name T-R-U. I am a very stable genius and just starting to reach my potential, which a lot of people are saying, is the greatest the world has ever seen.

I like to post something that scares the shit out of people and then watch them squirm. It's in my make-up. Not the goop I put on my face but in my essence. People don't realize that I am familiar with essences. I tell Melania every day that her essence smells beautiful. She adores me for it. She really does.

When I'm not golfing, which is 25 percent of the time, I'm very busy looking in the mirror, watching television, figuring out ways to comb my hair so that it looks real, and getting mad at my staff of ... well, losers, really. But they think I love them. And that's the key to making a beautiful deal which I constantly am doing every second, even when I'm golfing. I always win.

Right now, I'm going to call my good friend Vlad the Mad Putin. He doesn't know I call him that because I am constantly working him into a corner. It's called making a deal and only I can do it. I've got his private number that he only gives to me. Okay: listen, Vlad's phone is about to ring: buzzzzzz, buzzzzz, buzzzzzz... buzzzzzzz... (no answer).

He's probably out riding his horse. I'll call back a little later. 

I once said that "tariff" is the most beautiful word in the world. It has a ring to it and it starts with the letter "t", the same as my name. Tariffs are another way of making people squirm. I just love it! I don't love the people. I just like watching them react so quickly, very quickly. That's one of my secrets to success, threaten people with words and scowls, including my lazy mob-boss way of talking. It's how you make America great again; slump, pump and weave whatever comes into my head. I know it's very clever. Some say the most clever they've ever seen.

Some say you have to forgive your enemies, which is the biggest joke I've ever heard. You don't forgive anyone. Period. That's a loser. It's like not beating your dog for shitting on your carpet. You think a dog will stop shitting on your carpet if you forgive the dog? Get real. Threaten the dog. Punish the dog. Set an example. Same thing with democrats or anyone who disagrees with you or insults you. Post a line on social media calling them scum of the earth or vermin of humanity, and use their name.

I love firing people from their jobs or whatever. I got famous for doing that on my TV show, The Apprentice, which, by the way, was the most beautiful and famous show ever on television. Practice makes perfect and I've been doing it ever since.

You probably have heard that I am the President of Peace. That's what they say. I've ended more wars in the world than anyone ever. Now that I've renamed our Department of Defense the Department of War I will be ending even more wars. Which reminds me, let's try Vlad again on the phone, his personal number of course, only I have that number.

Buzzzzzzzz. Buzzzzzzzz. Buzzzzzzzz. 

(Gruff voice answers) Who is this?!!!

Vlad, it's me, Don.

Don who?

You know, Don Trump

I told you not to call me anymore, Yankee. For that, I'm going to send another drone strike, over Estonia this time.

Very funny, Vlad.

(Click).

That's beautiful. What a guy. I've got him where I want him. I'm on roll. I'm going to order some more gold for the Oval. You know I'm building a big beautiful ballroom, 150-thousand square feet, to go next to the White House. They say I'm the greatest ever. Do you want to buy one of my meme coins. I get 75-percent. 

THANK YOU FOR YOUR ATTENTION TO THIS MATTER!!!

Postscript:

Just yesterday Vlad called me, a personal call of course. I told him to call me anytime, even if I'm on the golf course. Did you know I putt while sitting in a golf cart?  It drives my opponents crazy!

Buzzzzzz. Buzzzzzz.

"Vlad! Great to hear from you."

"I want to talk about Tomahawk missiles."

"Tomahawks, love 'em."

"If you give any to Zelensky I will never talk to you again."

(Click).

I just love the guy. 

Mosquito Dharma

Nature does not hurry, yet everything is accomplished. -- Lao Tzu

PHOTO:KCS

I met with my guru recently. I say "guru" for lack of a better word. He's a person just like you and me, but unlike me he has studied various religions of the world and their histories. His Tibetan Buddhist studies and practice have earned him the honorary title of rinpoche.

He helps me to understand the greater picture of what's happening in our world and what we might do about it as individuals. I always learn something from him. We met at a coffee shop in Santa Cruz while construction was taking place nearby. The din of tractors and graders beeping and grinding served as our background. Soon those noises faded away as time passed while we talked and laughed.

Following is our conversation:

Me: So good to see you. It's been too long. 

Rinpoche: Yes, too long. What a beautiful afternoon to see you. 

Me: Agreed. What have you been doing?

R: Nothing.

Me: That's funny. I said that to my high school football coach when he asked what I had done over the summer. He answered sharply: "Nothing! Don't tell me you did nothing!" I was taken back.

R: He was obviously trapped in what we call samsara, the state of always having to do something but never going anywhere. Like running in circles.

Me: What's wrong with running in circles? 

R: That's fine as long as you know you're going nowhere.

Me: Where should we be going?

R: Nowhere. There is no should. We are not given orders. We make that up.

Me: Don't we need direction to get along and accomplish things, like building homes and acting civil to each other?

R: Yes, there is a balance to maintain. But our primary activity to sustain life is to act with compassion for all sentient beings.

Me: Does that include our enemies, even mosquitoes?

R: It includes all sentient beings.

Me: But a mosquito could transmit an infectious disease to me, like malaria. I could die. Is it wrong to kill a sentient being who can kill you?

R: What is WRONG? Let's for a minute dispense with right and wrong. Mosquitoes are not calculating right or wrong. They are just being mosquitoes.

Me: And I'm just being human.

R: Are you?

Me: Yes, I'm protecting myself from disease.

R: Must you kill the mosquito?

Me: I guess I could run away, or spray repellent on exposed parts of my body.

R: That's an idea I like.

As we stood talking in the patio twilight, I could hear the buzzing of a mosquito nearby. A second or so later Rinpoche slapped at his forehead, leaving the remains of a dead mosquito stuck to his skin.

Me: You just killed a mosquito, Rinpoche, after telling me to show compassion for all sentient beings.

R: Do you DO everything anybody tells you?

Me: No, but I don't understand your lesson. I don't consider you just ANYBODY.

R:  Would you rather that I had simply allowed the mosquito to bite me?

Me: No, but...

R: As a human being I am not perfect.

Me: But isn't the mosquito perfect?

R: It is certainly more perfect than I am. Shall we drink tea?

September Song

My father Frank Samson in our driveway with his '57 Studebaker Silver Hawk, Pomona, Calif., 1958.  San Gabriel Mountain peaks barely visible in background. Shot with my Brownie Hawkeye camera.

September always meant going back to school following a long hot summer. In Pomona, where I grew up, it also meant the Los Angeles County Fair. 

We students were given free tickets to the fair since the Fairgrounds were located just north of the center of town. My memory tells me there was a little piggy on the face of the ticket welcoming us to the annual show of agriculture, all sorts of exhibits and of course the Midway where the giant ferris wheel was located. That Ferris wheel was so high it identified the Fairgrounds from miles away, a landmark that stood vacant and fallow for most of the year.

There was -- and may still be -- a horse-racing track at the Fairgrounds with a large grandstand. As I got older, I began to look forward to the races that were held in conjunction with the Fair. If I had earned extra cash during the summer, I would place two-dollar bets on "the ponies." I liked the long shots whose payoffs were more substantial, although I was never much of a bettor, although some of my friends were. I played my money conservatively. I enjoyed watching the horses race, their hooves pounding under long legs and slender ankles. Betting enhanced the experience. Curiously, you didn't need an ID to place a bet.

My favorite exhibit at the Fair was the photography show of mostly black and white pictures that captured unique perspectives of mundane scenes, some of people doings things as simple as eating an ice cream cone or standing on a corner. Why were they so interesting? What made me stop and study these photos? I never spent too much time wondering about it, but I was intrigued and never missed the opportunity to pass through the photo exhibit.

The Midway with its rides and music and roaming kids was a big draw for teenagers. One night I watched a girl dance, amazingly, to Ray Charles's "Hit the Road, Jack", her lithe body floating above her dazzlingly quick-moving feet, her hair hanging over her face glazed in concentration. She had become the music. Watching her, I was entranced by the rhythm and beat...  don'cha come back no more, no more... hit the road...

We met high school friends at the Midway on Friday night, hung out, enjoyed a few rides and took in the scene and when we got home our shoes were covered in black greasy oil. You never wanted to wear white shoes or pants to the Midway.

At St. Joseph's, September meant seeing kids you hadn't seen since June. The girls changed the most with their new hair cuts and smiles. Their bodies were changing, too, as they were becoming young women with budding breasts that made you realize the wonder and excitement of sexual arousal and the awkward activity of flirting, if it only meant a second look.

The nuns attempted to keep the boys and girls separated, in the classroom as well as during periods of recess. So we met at the bowling alleys and movie theaters. There was always a workaround. There were actually three bowling alleys in town! I was bowling before I knew how to drive.

September weather could be brutal in our inland valley of Southern California. Temperatures could reach into the 100s, my forearms dripping sweat on my desk and notebook after coming in from recess where we boys never seemed to stop running, playing keep-away, a crude form of rugby. We lined up at the water fountains our mouths parched from the heat, gulping and splashing each other with wonderful water, quenching every last cell in your body.

In the mid-thirties, Pomona was known as the Queen of the Citrus Belt, with groves of oranges surrounding town. We were the eastern-most city in Los Angeles County located at the foot of the San Gabriel Mountains and Mt. Baldy, separated from the rest of the county by Kellogg Hill, near an Arabian horse farm and the campus of Cal Poly Pomona established on 1500 acres in 1938. The major department store was The Orange Belt. Some of the kids' parents acted on TV shows and in commercials. With its historical craftsman houses adorned with stonework from local quarries and streets shaded by leafy trees, old Pomona was early-on a taste of small-town America, a get-away from the bustle of L.A., 30 miles west. 

The rural foothills ran east from L.A. and Septembers were dry and became the peak season for wild fires. Those blazes became backdrops for L.A. noir crime novels by Ross MacDonald, The Underground Man 1971; Don Winslow, California Fire and Life 1991; and Jonathan and Jesse Kellerman, The Burning 2020, among other more recent stories.

September also meant the beginning of football season and two-a-day practices, in the morning and again in the afternoon, with full pads and blocking sleighs and drills like "blood on the moon." They began a week or so before school started and after the morning session we would meet at Pascal's hamburger stand and drain tall cups of Coke with ice. One afternoon, the coaches ended practice early because we were hacking and coughing from the heat coupled with the smog that settled against the foothills blown into the valley by onshore winds from the coast, the opposite direction of the warm Santa Ana winds that blow in from the Great Basin in winter.

The temperature reading on the bank downtown read 105 that day. The air was tinted brown.

September means life, the birth of my eldest daughter, Molly, and the loss of her mother, Linda, 29. Bittersweet September. 

My father, Frank, was also born on the 21st of the month.

September 21-24 brings the autumnal equinox, the end of summer and oncoming of fall. It announces change, a seasonal pivot. It means storms forming up north near the Aleutians, generating major swells resulting in larger waves on the West Coast, the beginning of a new season of surf. It also means the upcoming Santa Cruz County Fair, apple pie and pig races.