Too Much Fun!

Art by Isabel Bryna

My daughter tells me that I need to change my frequency.

She blithely dances around her house singing amid bright colors and art, as if she were the star in a fantastical musical. She talks about moon phases and draws cosmic connections and spiritual symbols on canvas. 

I, on the other hand, issue warnings of doom and gloom due to our dictator president. 

She's tuned into the universe.

I'm tuned in to the next election.

I want to tell her that under a fascist government her art could be censored. It's a possibility, I want to say.

I realize she doesn't need to hear this, coming from an elder member of the old establishment. I think about how I tuned in, turned on and dropped out as a young man. That's how I arrived in Santa Cruz, at that time an enclave of post-Sixties hippies and progressive idealists. I lived on the fringe in a time warp.

Today I'm a doomsayer. I don't want to bum her trip. But...

What about AI? I ask.

She says it will never match the inner human spirit that is counterpoint and the essence of our spiritual being. Or something like that. She actually writes and publishes oracles. Her expressions exceed my simple understanding.

Each morning I bombard myself with negative energy of how the dictator has flaunted the law, extorted dollars, made himself richer while stealing medical care from ordinary folks. And so on and so forth. That's the job of a free press, to hold the government accountable.

But I believe my daughter is right. I need a new frequency in the greater cosmic universe. Regardless of who or where we are, the only thing we really have is time. This has become more obvious as I've watched friends pass into the next realm, whatever that is. 

With these meanderings in mind, following a day-long travel episode from the Hawaiian islands to the mainland, I had a dream unlike any other. I can best describe it as a psychedelic trip, with bending imagery and incredible audio depth. It was exhilarating.

I was throwing a party and many of my friends who have passed were in attendance. I wore a feather on my head and rode a galloping horse bareback over grassy, sloping grounds. I hugged the horse's neck whose head turned out to be Frida, my late, special German Shepherd. 

I greeted each of my guests with the two-finger peace sign and called: "Too Much Fun!" Which boomed out as if broadcast by loudspeaker. From their faces, surrounded by halos. I was feeling a new frequency.